More and more animals...

Are here around me in Waco. My brothers sweet doggies - Bo, a 2 year old yellow lab mix, and Mojo, a 6 year old, crazed shepherd/hound mix of some sort. He runs around with an American flag scarf and is obsessed with my older brother to the point that he has to stay in the car or be in someone's home when my brother is away. Separation anxiety doesn't even know such separation.

My dear bud Lynn's puppy (5 months old) which she had for only 2 weeks died suddenly of Parvo with shots and everything. She is devastated and then I realize how blessed I was with 14+ years with Astro in his 15 year life.

Another friend at a party had recently lost her 15 year old, a woman was on the side of the street with a 6 foot sign trying to give away a puppy to total strangers and another woman had a rescue and at the party was trying to get us to get a home for it. My oldest brother just rescued another kitten named FOSTER... with a bent ear. His Sebastian, orange tabby, is about 18 pounds thin! This along with all my ex riding buddies telling tales ... or should I say...tails... of their horses now, the shows they are going to, etc.

Animals, animals, animals everywhere! I see where my love of animals came from.

I am soooo blessed to have known such love and to have known so many that love animals this way.

Off to LA and my putty tats Mootzie and Malie Cat!

Going Home...

Texas Independence Day and mom's Birthday - all on May 2nd - what a coincidence! Goin' back to Texas ... Waco more specifically... to rejuvenate and remember what's real.

I was blessed with the love of many animals in Texas - large and small. Horses, cats, dogs, gerbils, etc. Boy I was very, very lucky. My family members are on their own and all have their own broods. The legacy continues. A family that is taught to love animals grows to love animals through a lifetime. We are really just spoiled and can't stay away from that unconditional love!

I will reflect on my recent loss of Astro and think of the future.

Kind words, cards, books, etc. keep coming my way - it is SO amazing. I really don't understand it all. This dog had an amazing power to attract. He was bigger than life that's for sure.

I will read and take pen to notebook and finally write my personal feelings about this loneliness. I heard from an ex friend (that's another story) today and her words were true in the card ... there must be a space in my home that is impossible to fill.

Impossible??? i have two cats ... but right now I am ready to cleanse the front bedroom AGAIN from their pee fest. Why now? Well everyone is aging and something is going on here altogether. There is a dynamic which now is quite different without Astro. We all sleep very heavy but not happy.

I know he is here watching over us all still. I meditated today and tried to hear his voice, his mind, kiss her so very soft ears. I could feel him wanting me to move on. Then a crappy, bad, horrible day at work and you say "move on" ...to what?

More from Texas. Vaya con Dios.